For our special baby boy x x x
Hello gorgeous boy! Sorry i've not wrote on here for so long, but you know i talk to you every day. Love you so much baby boy, and i'll never stop missing you.I'll make sure your baby sister knows all about her brave & special big brother when she is born darling, we love you & miss you forever, mummy, daddy & baby Ella x x x
To our beautiful Nephew, EVAN
Hello Evan, sending you all our love, as always.
I know you know how amazing your mummy is but i just wanted to tell you myself how much we are in awe of her..she is so determined and brave..as is your daddy too. Mummy is doing well but has sad days and always will, she misses you so much..but you know that already don't you sweetheart.
We love and miss you so much and wish you could have stayed here with all of us..but you are all around us every day in pictures and in our memories and especially in our hearts.
We will come and visit your special garden soon..i have a little bear for you with your initial on it..i'm sure you will like it.
Loving you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Just popping in to look at your beautiful face sweetpea.....your photo's are everywhere, but especialy in my heart & mind. I always see your beautiful face when i close my eyes, me & daddy love you always. Night night my sweetpea, missing you all the world x x x
Moving words
I cam eto light a candle for gorgeous Evan, and to send floaty love to him x Paula hun your words are so so lovely, i know how much you hurt, well i know u know i do x you are a very brave lady a true inspiration to many xxx Love you sweetie
Evan x i hope your playing with my Ashleigh, Morgan and Angel xxxx
loving mummy
Paula, you will always feel like you did something wrong because thats a mother's instinct, but you did nothing wrong, you did everything right and could not love Evan any more deeply than you already do. I think that writng down your thoughts in the tribute you have wrote will help you, you have needed to do that. You should feel very,very proud of yourself for getting through like you and Ste have, both your determination and belief is an inspiration to everyone who knows you.
Your love for Evan is so obvious for all to see and Evan will love you always.
We love you and Ste very much and will always be right here for you both.
Love to Evan and our two beautiful nephews/nieces, always.
Memories of losing you.....
Sweetpea, mummy can't stop thinking of the time you left today.....
mummy was sat giving you cuddles through the holes in your incubator, singing to you and telling you i loved you. Daddy had gone back to the ward for the camera & to sort some stuff. I was telling you to keep strong, that i was so proud of you for being so strong & please keep fighting. Then your little heartbeat dropped so low. All the dr's & nurses came running to you & started to try & resuscitate you & get your heart beating properly again. One of the nurses kept asking me where daddy was so they could go & get him, but i couldn't answer i was crying so much....it hurt my stomach i was crying that hard & i thought my stitches would burst. I thought it was my fault, you had been ok until i started to talk to you & cuddle you, you had been fighting hard.
Eventually they found your daddy & brought him back. They were still trying to get your heart going again but it just wasn't working. I begged them to help you, to give you more drugs, but they said you had had every drug possible. There was nothing they could do as your lungs were too small & your little heart & kidneys weren't working, the strain was too much for your body to take. All they could do was to keep trying cpr to see if it worked, but they said it was unlikely. So mummy had to make the hardest decision ever...i had to let them stop. I couldn't stand to watch them do that to your tiny body anymore, not for no reason, when it wouldn't work. I asked them to stop & take out your tubes so i could hold you for the 1st & last time while you were still alive. Daddy agreed. They quickly took the tube out of your throat, wrapped you in the little blanket we bought you, & gave you to me. Your little face seemed to tighten for a minute, like a little grimace. Then a little smile seemed to appear, & you passed away in my arms. Then me & daddy took you to a quiet room where we cuddled you loads & bathed & dressed you. Then all your family came to meet you, such a devastating time but i remeber being so proud of you baby.
I cried so much that night, & ever since, i hated myself for letting them stop for a long time. I also was convinced i killed you by cuddling you too much & talking to you. But the dr's say that you probably waited until you felt safe enough in your mummy's arms to let go, that's why you went when we were finally alone & having cuddles. That makes sense, i hope it's true. And i know in my heart it was right to stop all of your pain, you were suffering so much, even if it meant i would suffer for the rest of my life....you were & always will be my number 1 priority sweetpea. I would have died to protect you, but i couldn't. But i always did my best for you, & i will always love you...your forever in my heart & soul darling boy x x x x x
Hi baby, it has been nearly a year since i last cuddled you, since i lay you down for your forever sleep. On wednesday i wont have been able to hold,touch or kiss you for a whole year. It breaks my heart...i love you & miss you sunshine,you are always in mummy's heart & mind x x x
Happy 1st Birthday!!
Well little man you are 1 already!! I hope you have been looking down to see all your Birthday surprises! Hope you liked your balloon, flowers and teddy we brought you on Sunday. I'm going to come and see all your birthday treats tomorrow, as I was working today! So did you see all your candles? See how much you are missed? Katie and Lucie lit one each and it's been burning all day. Did you catch the kisses Katie blew up to you on her way to nursery? Hope so! Thank you for the little white feather- again!! xxx We love and miss you sweetheart xxxxx
Happy Birthday , you beautiful little angel. Play safe in the clouds on your first birthday little man.
Loads and loads of love Jayde xxxxxxx
Happy 1st Birthday!!
Our little man is growing so fast up in heaven! Happy birthday sweetie, we love & miss you loads. Hope you enjoyed your party in the sky, & you like your balloons, flowers & cake!
So many people have sent you birthday messages today Evan....that shows just how special you are. Love you all the world, mummy & daddy x x xx
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